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SPOILER WARNING FOR ORV UP TO CHAPTER 540 in threads with Kim Dokja and Yoo Joonghyuk
SPOILER WARNING FOR ORV UP TO CHAPTER 540 in threads with Kim Dokja and Yoo Joonghyuk
SPOILER WARNING FOR ORV UP TO CHAPTER 540 in threads with Kim Dokja and Yoo Joonghyuk
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We don't have the other half, either.
[ Went boom in the other world. Joonghyuk continues to believe Kenoma is the path to happiness. Power is the answer. ]
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It's still more than we had before.
[Sooyoung still believes this -- that the dokja who likes tomatoes and doesn't really read WoS is still less somehow. that's because she's biased and mad that he doesn't remember every detail from WoS]
We can see him and talk to here. He's not sick.
[SHE THINKS..............]
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[ Joonghyuk can't stand to abandon any piece of Dokja. He wouldn't be their Dokja if he was missing memories?
Anyway, power is the answer. ]
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there's a pulse of annoyance at that, something both petulant and guilty]
I know that! I'm just saying that it feels like...
[...what DOES it feel like, while on a throne of LIES]
You talked to him, didn't you? What did you two idiots talk about?
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[ This is betrayal for their Rescue Kim Dokja pact. There’s a shift in Joonghguk’s emotions… Nuanced, but maybe concerning. ]
… He said he didn’t want to be saved.
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okay.
she sees what he means.]
Shut up.
[he can be right just this once, don't unpack her avatar trauma]
Both of you should, actually. He's just throwing a tantrum about the regression.
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[ Is Sooyoung ready to pick between parents. It's time. ]
Are you going to side with him?
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but hm, this question... it confirms her worst fears? turns out you don't need predictive plagiarism when it comes to kim dokja and yoo joonghyuk, and their relationship where neither of them are honest with each other, or are only honest about the wrong things.]
What, do you want me to stab him and bring him over to your big, shiny castle?
[don't say yes yjh]
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[ He says yes, even though he knows she isn't serious. Sooyoung has a conventional loyalty to Dokja, he knows. ]
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Don't involve me in your weird faction roleplaying.
Be honest. You really think he'd submit to the Kenoma? That guy? Who doesn't listen to anyone but himself? If it could be as easy as tying him up, then I'd have done that already. He'll probably eat the sludge and then die about it.
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All he needs to do is stay out of my way.
[ Dokja doesn't need to convert? He just needs to not be an obstacle in Joonghyuk's new warpath. ]
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[dokja's shaped his entire life around being an obstacle to yjh?]
Not as long as you're in the Kenoma.
[she's frustrated. both at dokja and joonghyuk, maybe a little at herself. At all the ways she's falling short.]
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[ SO ARE YOU ]
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[and she is not, thank you very much]
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[ Binch. ]
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I'm the one who's making sure he doesn't do anything stupid!
[which is why she'll tag along after dokja on this raid to rescue people she knows nothing about, with barely any kind of actual plan in mind.]
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[ He knows Dokja had his ways of getting people roped up in his plans… So…
This is also a roundabout way to say keep him safe, even though he’s mad. He’s still mad enough where if he sees them, he will try to stab them. ]
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[MISTER STAYING IN THE CITADEL, EATS KENOMA AND JUST STAYS OVER. she can decipher that very roundabout way of telling her to look after dokja, and it just makes her madder that yoo joonghyuk can't just come over and do it himself.
but of course he can't, because he's angry. because hsy didn't tell him when she should have, and left dokja to overcome that hurdle himself. why didn't she tell him? out of spite? that dokja should speak to yoo joonghyuk himself and find out the exact reason why they regressed for him?
or because of joonghyuk's emotions when he told her what happened after, about dokja's soul splitting. about his decision to use the kenoma for now, in hopes of a better world. because dokja had done this, had made them resort to yet another solution. if she'd told him that dokja was here, then would he have been happy?
she can already tell by the vein of this conversation that it would not have turned out the way she wanted, precisely because this is yoo joonghyuk, and yoo joonghyuk has never done or acted the way Sooyoung wanted him to.]
I can't leave him alone. ...And I can't leave you alone either.
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[ And he has made it somehow, through sheer will and determination despite all of his failures. Somehow, some way, Joonghyuk thinks he will be fine.
But Sooyoung has good reasons not to tell him... It would incite his ire, but maybe that is a good thing? Has anger not always been better than grief? Don't they all miss him? Not that pieces of him can make a whole—maybe it would make them feel lonelier, like when they were left with half of Dokja at their conclusion.
In the end, Dokja did talk to Joonghyuk much like Sooyoung wanted. Did they communicate like she wished? Probably not. There are too many words unsaid, too many questions left unanswered—Dokja may not have understood or accepted why they regressed. Joonghyuk doubted and doubts that man would be able to see until he's pushed to the edge.
Joonghyuk is left with a stronger resolve to use Kenoma to his own means. ]
If you are thinking to bring me to Pleroma during the raid, I won't be going with you until you find something useful from them.
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She should find comfort in that, in those thousands of years, in all those regression turns where Yoo Joonghyuk was alone, only to carry that loneliness onto the next one. She wonders if that means that she shouldn't concern herself with him, and for a moment she's tempted? She'd love it if she could be free from the headache that is Yoo Joonghyuk. But that's just the spiteful part of herself talking. The same part that wants Yoo Joonghyuk to be less of a bastard and more open and more cooperative and more unlike himself.
It's a frequent thought, but it never lasts. Just like now, as Sooyoung tries to grapple for a response, something to convey that she's not convinced by that loneliness.
...maybe those are words better saved when she sees him in person. instead,]
You better not try to kill me when I see you.
[>:T]
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She can make her own decision as the genius writer.
There's just a long silence, as if he's deliberating over her demand... And he hangs up. ]
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